Again, I am suppose to be at cresent right now. But because of my mother, I am not going already. -'-
I wonder, what will we become if we continue this way. We, or maybe me shall change before things starts changing.

Today, is definitely not okay.

"Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart." Kahlil Gibran

Just back from Jiamin/Boyf's house, I AM SUPPOSE TO BE AT CRESENT NOW K!
But they are going cyrus, & I will so not gonna sit there & watch so I came home early! mama must have be happy uh. :D

& I am going sentosa on ;
Tues, with Si Min & maria. :D
Wed, with cai yan & Jia min. :D
Hope more can join but who else? ):


Will update longer tomorrow. BYE! :D

Changed song, heres the lyrics yo.

I hate this part - Pussy Cat Dolls
We're driving slow
Through the snow
On fifth avenue
And right now radio's
All that we can hear

Man we ain't talked since we left
It's so overdue
It's cold outside
But between us its worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday seven takes of the same old scheme
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you its hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see the sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

But I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I hate this part

I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it


I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

Did I really understand, Did I really tried to.
I am sorry for everything, I suck.

-'-! -'-! -'-!-'-! -'-! -'-! -'-! -'-! -'-! ):

"Love is the extremely difficult realization that something other than oneself is real." Iris Murdoch

Today went out with Jia min, met her & went to eat KFC. <3 then si min came, after while met cai yan & the rest. went white house but didn't dare to go in. :)
I'm meeting boyf tomorrow, I hope thing would get better by then. :D

I took a IQ test on free-iqtest.net, & guess what. MY IQ IS ONLY 99. -.-
some of the question I didnt try lo, so hard. ): I want my new phone, but i've got no idea which one i suppose to buy. ):

"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved, loved for ourselves, or rather loved in spite of ourselves". Victor Hugo


Yes I am feeling better after yesterday. :D

met Si min & Wei Jie at tiong yesterday, saw Tracy & Jia Min. :D so we bus-ed down to town & walked to far east. :) walk & eat, then wei jie wanted to go peninsular(I dont know how to spell. -.-) So cab-ed there since we dont know what bus to take, met the blog shopper for my stuffs at city hall mrt, walked to peninsular.

Wei jie saw his friends, they talked & when we were about to leave. they shouted my name, so loud. -.- so of course I will ask wei jie if he tell them my name, he claimed that he didnt. -.-
Wei Jie bought his stuffs, then we went to safra. :D arcade-ed, tried to para again. phew, my standard still there after a year. Lol went block10 to eat, saw Isk. He sit & talked awhile & left for work. :D
Reached home around 11? :D

Then baby & me were talking on msn, :)

Me : anyway baby, I show you something hot.
Baby : alright!!!!
Me : here it goes http://profiles.friendster.com/clubofrain
(2 minutes later )
Baby : ＃％＄＠×％＃＠！　
Me : Hot right?
Baby : hot you head la.

laughs, then let the picture do the talking. :D Oh & &,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICO WANG! :D
you asshole, how long i didnt get to see you already. Take care of yourself la, get fatter, fat like an ass. :D you promised will meet us next week, you promised! :) Happy birthday once again.

I am having a mood swing, dont ask me why.
Hopefully, tomorrow outing with Wei Jie & co would be a better day.
Till then.

finding fault.

"Love concentrates so intently on another that you forget yourself at that moment. Attention says, 'I value you enough to give you my most precious asset - my time'". Unknown

Went out with Jia min the whole day, talked alot. :) then went her house to find boyf. :) Oh &, I cut my hair. My fringe too. Mother said not nice. ):
Went to NTUC to buy groceries with mama & brother, ate KFC & took a cab home.

Is this all started because of her? NO. Think about it, why was I shouting like that. I am not trying to find fault on anyone. & when I say I dont want to do on the particular thing, I MEAN IT.

Best friend.

she is my best friend.

I am sorry of the problems you are facing lately, I know this is tough.
trying so hard to let your parents understand but no avail, you got to cheer up alright? I know this wont really help that much, but remember how we used to tell every of our secrets to each other? you've been my best friend for a year, & we always will. so far, no one can understand how I always feel like you do.
I've never seen you cry, no matter how bad you feel deep inside.

Just remember, even you are tansferring. you've got us, you've got me. :)
its not the end of the world my dear, definitely not. :) & I believe your parents will get to understand one day, just like mine. Be strong, you told me that when I was at my lowest. I know you can k, lets meet up really soon. <3 Love you many. Take gooooooood care of yourself k!

" you dont get to choose, you just fall. " anonymous

late post again. :D

so anyway, yesterday went to baby's house to wake him up. Cai Yan & Jia Min was there, <3 I did everything I could just to wake him up. Let him sleep after that, because I going for lunch with Jia min & Cai Yan. :D
Went back to find baby, waited for him to bath. sorry to make you angry baby, & thanks for not throwing any temper at me, I love you. :) baby & Jason went to cresent while I stay at his house with Jia min, was tired & wantee to go home, BUT I FORGOT TO BRING MY KEEEEEEYY!? ): No choice, so went to cresent to find boyf + Isk & co. :)
Went block 10 to eat & watched tevee, Joked alot. :D played poker again, slacked. reached home around 12 30? :D

& my eyes is infected, ): Very very red & very pain. Because of this & i dont know if i can go out today. But, contact lense is still a must. (: how am i suppose to see anything without it?! I shall go and see the doctor soooooooooooon. :D

"Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul." St. Augustine




Didn't update yesterday? Went to town with si min, saw party world's promotion? :D so we went there until 8pm & I bused to cresent while Si Min headed home. (: reached home around 11 30. :D
As for today, I accompanied mother the whole day. (: Talked alot today, :D redo my nails again! <3 & I saw abby hun, we will go out really soon k!

Friendster is driving me crazy, so I guess I will use facebook from now on. & I just cant use the blogskins on blogskins.com, all messed up. ): So I decided to use blogger's skin again. :D Quite plain, but not bad though.

Its our 4th month baby. <3
Thanks for everything, & I mean everything. :D For reminding me to eat every meal, or rather forcing me to. For being there when I was at my lowest, For tolerating me & forgiving on every mistake that I've made, for helping me when I had to make the hardest decision, I appreciate everything love. :) We've been through so many, & only we know it. :D I love you a million.

Back to one.

I realized I've been posting stuffs that happened the day before.
So anyway, Meet Jiamin & co at KFC yesterday. It've been so long since I saw this girl la. ): Miss you la. Called Wei Jie to come down, daryl & co left then. :D
After Jia Min finished her lunch, bought her nail polished & we walked to sky garden. :D
Talked & Gossip, blahblahblahblah. :D
around 5 30, all left and cabb-ed to cresent? :D Supposed to watch movie together today, But leonard was sick. Get well real soon k! <3
Left quite early, wanted to post but baby called. Talked for few hours & baby wanted to sleep. (:

Baby, 3more days. :D
Thanks for everything, I am learning to love again because of you, After ________. :D
I love you.

losing confidence.

Sorry for not posting yesterday, came home quite late yup. :D
so anyway, went to find boyf, Isk & co yesterday. (: Supposed to meet them at boyf's house, but they wanted to go safra. :D so cabbed to safra, meet them.

Then ate at block 10. (: Slacked, Isk went work.
Went block ten again since boyf want to watch show. :D Kevin & leonard kept me entertained when he was watching his show. :D Then went to dontknowwhat block & played poker, I keep losing. ): but thanks baby, Iloveyou. :D slacked until 11 plus and went home. (:



As for today, I am supposed to meet yuting, zhi xiu & caiyan. ): But I didn't manage
to because I didn't ask money from mother. so, meet boyf for lunch at around 5pm. :D
KFC-ed, bus-ed to cresent to meet Isk & co. Saw leonard in the busssssssss! went safra, talked. I went home early because never inform mother that I am out.
Thanks baby for sending me to bus stop. <3

Lies?

HELLO. :D The weather sucks these few days, totally. ):
So, morning woke up super early. prepared and went to aunt's _____ at vivo, (:
Because mother wants to give her stuffs, and she wanted to buy clothes as well. So yea, took a few shots for aunt. Just simply trying, not planning to take the job. my love, dont worry. <3
Mother took a really long long time over there, bored. ): Then we mrt-ed to mother's shop, she helped me to re-do my nails! <3 love you mama. theres plenty of customers today, and I help them to apply nail-polish! laughs.
went home quite late today, brother came down. had dinner together and thats all for today. :D

I miss my best friend.

why.

I am lazy for peeeeeka-s, again. (:

So, around 12 Si Min woke me up. Got prepared and meet her and dayan at Tiong, they wanted to buy cigg so went Ho Swee. <3 I bought the cigg for them, do I look so old. -.-
went to block 20 for awhile, talked about __________.
So yea, then cab-ed to cresent. Daryl, Amos, xiao pang & Kenny came then, all kaypo-s.
Awhile more,boyf, Isk, Yuan Xiang, Wei Jie, Kevin, Yiping & her stead came followed by CaiYan, Vincent and another guy. Then, went to another place to settle _____________.
(Omfg. lol
so vincent & co left followed by daryl & co. (:
Went safra, awhile more only left me, simin, Isk, boyf & leonard. (:
went to eat & so,

Me : I go toilet.
Boyf : here toilet si bei dirty.
Isk : you also never go girl toilet how you know dirty.

went void deck, slacked.

( because leonard's phone sound like speakers. )

Isk : my balls are the speaker thats why like that.
( blah blah blah. )
Me : hannor, really like speaker lei.
( all laugh )
Me : NONO! I mean the phone really sounded like speaker not the balls!

Isk left to work, slacked awhile and we went home. (:
Reached home around 11pm? (:

you've got all my attention.

No photo today. (:


Finally, I get to meet si min today? :D Supposed to meet her in the morning, but both of us woke up late today. meet her at 3, ate at griller. The waitress was so funny la please.

Me : two cream dory, and one coke please.
W : 2 coke?
Me : one coke.
W : oh okay, ( looked at simin ) so you also the same?
SiMin : ya.
W : I repeat your order, 4 cream dory, 2 coke?
SiMin, Me : no no, is 2 cream dory. one coke.

2 person have 4 plates of rice? omfg.
Took poker and played, waited for daryl & co to come. (: Been a really long time since I saw them, joked and laughed. Navin was being super ar gua like usual, making that kind of stupid noise & so. a while more, Wei Jie came. (:
Simin left, and I left to boyf's house too. :D

learned some _____ from him, was like sweating. ):
slacked, played. Boyf's way of laughing makes people wants to laugh. :D
He played the stupid dota, and I went home after while because mother called. :D

Complicated.

I am rotting, rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot.

Was suppose to go out with mother today, but she kept delaying. I prepared for like 2 hours already she still haven change, so i bus-ed to safra? :D
meet Boyf, Isk, Yuan Xiang, leonard and kevin. (:
awhile more, Isk & co went off. went to boyf's house, slacked & so.
came home early because boyf wanted to go cyrus. (:

Boring day, rotting already. I will be very busy next week. ):
I am sick of the com now, any recommend games? no maple, no dota, no audition please. :D

Complicated.

Random :D

I am going to kill wei jie, for some reason. ):
I am rotting at home now, I dont know if I going to find boyf & co. I am too lazy to go out, but I am so bored. -'- I am-s.
Out of boredom or something. I put the bun in microwave, It turned out to be cao da and hell hard, supposed to make it softer lo. wtv

Gonna do a random survey? (:



1. My friends . . .
- The one who keep me moving. (:

2. I am listening to . . .
- wo bu pei.

3. Maybe i should learn . . .
- Stay strong, to be independent.

4. I love ...
- Things I love.

5. My plan . . .
- No plans.

6. I dont understand . . .
- aint good people have good endings?

7. I lost . . .
- your game.

8. People say . . .
- i've got attitude problems.

9. I am missing . . .
- My love.

10. Love means . . .
- willing to sacrifice for his good, no matter how.

11. Somewhere , someone is ...
- Loving me, I know. :D

12 . I am always searching for . . .
- real friend.

13. Forever seems . . .
- Impossible.

14. I never want to . . .
- End my life this easily. (:

15. My mobile phone ...
- Is dead.

16. When i wake up in the morning ...
- Was irritated.

17. I get annoyed when . . .
- I cant drink the pearls in bubble tea-s.

18. Parties are . . .
- extra.

19 . Hugs or kisses ?
- Hugs.

20. Today i . . .
- AM SO BORED.

21. Tmr i will be . . .
- out most likely.

22. I really want . . .
- to be in express again.

23. i . . .
- love my boyfriend.

24. What is your phone brand ?
- sony?

25What are the last three digit of your phone number ?
- 441. :D

26 What does the second message says in ur inbox ?
- I think no chance luh, i seriously dont think my singing is nice.

27. Who was the last person u rang ?
- baby.

28. Who was the last missed call from ?
- Macus. -.-

29. What does the oldest messenge from ur inbox says ?
- coming out later?

30 . Who comes up after " J " ?
- Jason？ (:

40. Go to ur send message - wat does the tenth message says ?
- ok good, can see you. :D

41. Who is ur network provider ?
- M1?

42. How many message are there in ur inbox ?
- am I suppose to count every of them?

43. Who do u have on speed dial three ?
- Mc hong.

44. If you are on prepaid card , how much credits do you have ?
- 20$

45. Who's the first person who comes up after "C" ?
- Caiyan.

46. What do you have as ur main ring tone ?
- Thunder.

47. Pass this quiz to ten ppl ...
- shien li
- Jia min
- elain t
- elain l
- vivian
- zhi xiu
- abby
- simin
- cai yan
- janice

Bleeding inside.

My skin are getting better. :D I am allergic to some food, I dont know what but I will get rashes after eating. I think is mushroom you know, I not sure. ):

so anyway, today is over all fine? Morning received Jiamin's message, telling me to take care since she is on her way to Taiwan. Take care yes my love, bet you will miss me. :D
Woke up and prepared, Bus-ed to boyf's house.
They were playing majong. Isk, leonard and kevin. (: I dont know how to play? so sit beside and watched. :D After while Jason came with bubble teas. <3
they played spa-ring after that. And ________ happened. ): I was like speechless and heart pain you know. ):
chat, talked, joked. Isk & co cab-ed to cresent, me and boyf had our dinner together. :D Boyf went home, because I wanted to buy solution for contact lense? walked to tiong there. Like omfg can, people normally sell solutions for 8dollar. But they sell it for $1 50. I bought contactlense case for 50cent,while other shops sell 2dollar. ._.

bus-ed back home. Just like usual, unknown group of people calling my name. claims that I know them which I dont.

Finally.

Today is FUN. :D


Got prepared and cab-ed to cresent after baby's call.
Like what the hell man, It cost me $9++. FROM REDHILL TO CRESENT.
The driver no balls, he took the long way. ): He kept talking on the phone with dont know what language, I was so fucking pissed off la.
Chill. Met boyf, Isk, Jason and Yuan Xiang. :D played poker while waiting for leonard? (: Every of them wore jeans today, first time you know?! Laughs
Went to great world, met Jiamin? :D went up to check the movie timing, very late. ):
Went arcade awhile and cab-ed to vivo. :D
Bought Ticket. Slacked, Smoked, Chat-ed, Joked. Watched the coffin. :D
The movie disappoint me man, stupid endings. And I dont understand the whole story. ):
Mother called me to go home because my brother didn't bring his key?
So yea. accompanied them to smoked.

Jia Min : Why the ship dont move one?
Jason : Nobody go up of course never move la, must wait for the time so it will move.
Jia Min : orh, I see.
Me : So, will the ship move?

-.-
Took 145 home. :D
Jiamin is going Taiwan tomorrow. ): I will miss her man, I WLL.

Ruined.

Look, I've been posting pictures lately k. :D

Yesterday, Went out with Simin, WeiJie and Daryl. (: Woke up, Get prepared and went to Tiong to meet them? I saw Ti-Ti-Da-Ti-Du again. I kept irritating WeiJie because I didn't want to stay at tiong, so we went to queen's way. :D WeiJie wanted to buy bottle so we went to Ikea, that dumbo didn't buy after we searched up and down for it.

Ate at Mac, Arcade-ed and bus-ed back to tiong. :D WeiJie bought cigg, Walked back Tiong. Meet daryl & co again. WeiJie went work. Waited for Jiamin to come and went membina. (:
Vincent and Caiyan came too. (: Joke-ed and Played while waiting for Yuting to come.

Then, Daryl & co left, followed by vincent and Caiyan. (: Walked here and there, finally decided to have our hair dye at salon terry. :D I highlighted red. (: the colour not bad, But i dont like my fringe. ): too bright already.

Jiamin and Yu ting left then, Waited for boyf to bath. Bought dinner up to sky garden. Ate and talked, meet wei Jie awhile and boyf cab-ed me home? :D Reached home around 11 30. :D





As for today, I am supposed to meet Boyf/Jiamin, Yuting/WeiJie & co.
But I am not feeling well. But the weather sucks. But my mother is making noise because I've been out everyday recently. So I think, I shall stay at home for today. But I miss my boyf. ):

Insecured.

I think my lappy is dying soon.

So anyway, today was with Jiamin the whole day. :D
Lunch-ed with her at tiong. I always got alot alot to talk when I go out with her, I can tell her everything man. <3 Saw amos, he kept disturb me and Jiamin. Laughs.

Then we went Bugis? Walked around street. Bought one pink hot pants, flora and green tube. <3 I want to go there again, I want I want. :D
Then we cab-ed down to safra? It was raining and there was hardly any cab there. ):
Jiamin went to look for dylan. I saw Isk, Leonard and Jason. :D talked and so.
Awhile Yuting came down, Talked and gossiped.
Breast-less Bitch. :D

Yuting left and we went Tiong.
Looked for WeiJie awhile, saw sky and the rest. (:
Then went home.

Tomorrow I am going to meet WeiJie and the rest, so long never go out with them. I miss. (:

Solution.

People. :D
I am so bored, bored bored and bored.

Went out with boyf today, again. :D Bus-ed to his house first. :)
I saw a super disgusting guy on the bus. He alight near kim tian that bus stop, He attracted my attention because the way he dressed was kind of formal.

But like what the -'-, he took out his shoe INFRONT OF EVERYONE, Then wear it again. He repeated this action for at least 3 times.
I was disgusted and turned around. I turned back, He was digging his damm nose. Suprised and I stared at him with enlarged eyes, he looked back at me with his finger still inside the nose of his. He took his finger out with those whatever, and left those whatever on the pole which was supposed to prevent people from falling. wth
Put his finger in once again, this time he shoot those whatever-s on the person whom was standing in front of him. -'-

so, went to boyf's house. Waited for him to changed .
Then we bus-ed to queen's way. <3 Bought my contact lense there, Brown this time. :D
Accompany boyf for his lunch at anchor point, and bus-ed to safra. :D
Waited for kevin to come, then Isk. Slacked a while and Jason came too. (:
Sorry to those people i called, i really needed it urgent. ):
Awhile, Isk went to work and i went back home at around 10 30? :D
Mama bought pizza for me. <3

Confession

-'-, I am so so so bored now. SO BORED.
I cant get through boyf's phone. ):

Yesterday went to mother's shop? (: was supposed to meet Jiamin, sorry sweet.
Reached there, waited for so long la -'-. I came first but everyone get to do it first. ): Her daughter, so what? Mother helped me do manicure, I dont like the design. ): but mama said its nice, shit colour. After that, ate dinner. went back shop and do facial, PAIN la please.

Cab-ed home with her, came home bath-ed and talk to boyf. (:
Boyf, sorry for everything k? but its the past, all of them. :D I do love you more than anyone else, I do. :D