why do i keep keeping running away from the truth.

i cannot upload pictures. ): and i cant sign in Msn. shit mannnnnn. :((((((
School was just as boring, mr goh dismissed us 10 minutes earlier. surprisingly uh. :D
i could see nothing on screen so did some maths revision with shien li, :D

after school stayed back with the rest, talked and chat.
bus-ed to tiong with casselyn, peiqi and adelene. :D went to peiqi's house for her books. her cat was like, she followed me to the toilet and didn't want to go out. Cute right, ! :DDDD went boyfriend's house, studied. I think i am starting to have the interest on studies again! :D hope it wasn't too late. ohhhhh and guess what, i heard that Ms chong said alot failed our english, i guess i might be one of them. ): die.

Studied while peiqi was reading comics and boyfriend was playing PSP. then, boyfriend disturbed and kept licking my face and neck. gawwwddddd, my face then was like. DAMMMMMM STICKY LAAAAA cannnnnn. ): left boyfriend's house around six, he need to go down cresent. hope Isk is fine, ):

ohhhhh and surprisingly, i can cook. without getting any food burn, :DDDDDDD

everytime i get stuck, the words wont fit.

gone, forever.

morning wake up i was like, dammmmmmm dizzy la can. banged her and there, but i didn't want to skip school since exam is coming. :D its just next weeeeeek.
goodluck for all k.
school was rather relax, since 老师 only went through some questions on the exam paper. she kept waking me up. :D lit-ed, Ms olivia didn't bother to care about me and shien li since we didn't make much noise today though. had heart-to-heart talk.
geo lesson with kayatree, dayan and simin came up our class. :) talked.

after school went to tiong again, ate at subway.
then i was like, heard somebody saying. " look, she is sim weekiat's.... " i turned around but i didn't know who was talking. ._.
went to xiaoplayground with weijie, weixiong, dayan, simin and kahweng. :D
talked and slacked, it've been a rather long time since the last time i saw weijie. talked and played alot. :D! went to look for boyfriend for a lil while, then went home. :) finallllyyy, i got a hug from boyfriend today. :D

baby, the time we spent together is getting lesser.
I hope everything will back to normal after EOY-s. :)
you promised everything will be alright, you promised! :D
i cant afford to lose you, not anymore. :D
Iloveyou.

will post about yesterday since today has just started. (:
Cab-ed to tiong meet simin then mrt-ed to plaza sing. :D
walked around, up and down. take a look at those couple stuff at couple lab. :D
walked to town, to far east. :D
I contact lense was killing me, :( i took it out and drew it into the dustbin.
bus-ed back to tiong, bought instant noodle and ate at playground, pathetic right.
LOl, talked and chat until 10 30pm and bus-ed back home. :D

i got up the bus too early, if not i will get to see pei qi, weixiong, weijie, calvin and boyfriend already. :( they wanted to look for me.

now i shall post the quiz from wifey. (:


Th person that tagged you is?
SimJiaMin. :D

Your relationship with him/her is?
She is my wifey. :D

Your five impression of him/her.
Crazy, Cute, Sweet, Caring, Softhearted. :D

The most memorable thing he/she done for you.
everything we've done for the past 4years. :D

The most memorable thing he/she said to you.
Hmmmm,

If she becomes your lover, you will ..
Lol!

If she becomes your love, she'll have to improve on?
Nothing? (:

If she becomes your enemy, you will ..
try to be friends again. :D

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
i dont think that will ever happen? (:

You want to tell for her now ..
I love you dearest wifey. :D we laughed,talked,gossiped,played,shopped,shared secrets for 4years. i hope everything will remain. :D you are always the first i run to whenever i got problems. you are the greatest. :D

Your overall impression of her.
she is the one who i can trust and talk to, unlike others. :D

How do you think people around you will feel about you?
no idea?

The characteristics you love of yourself are.
I cry and laugh whenever i want, i dont care what people thinks. I AM ME! :D　

On the contrary , the characteristics you hate yourself are.
I show my emotion too easily. :(

The most ideal person you want to be is.
the one i am with now? (:

For people that care and like you , say something to them.
thanks for everything love. :D

Pass this quiz to 10 person u wish to know how they feel about u:
1. Teo Shien-li
2. Elaine Tan.
3. Vivian Lee.
4. Maria.
5. Adelene chong.
6. Janice Sie.
7. Hcaiyan.
8. Pamelia.
9. abby
10. Mchong.

Who is no.6 having relationship with ? (Janice)
No one. :D

Is no.9 a male or female ? (Abby)
Female. (:

If no.7 and 10 are together , will it be a good thing ?(caiyan, Mc)
No, obviously.

What is no.2 studying about ? (Elaine T)
Retarded question.

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 ? (Vivian)
Friday? :D

What kind of music band does no.8 like ? (Pamelia)
No idea.

Does no.1 have any siblings ? (shien li)
Yes? :D

Will you woo no.3? (Vivian)
she is my Boyfriend! :D

How about no.7? (Caiyan)
No? :D

Is no.4 single? (Maria)
Yes.

What is the surname of no.5 ? (Adelene)
Chong.

What is the hobby of no.10 ? (Mchong)
Smoking. LOl

Does no.5 and 9 get along well ?
Adelene and Caiyan. they dontknow each other. (:

Where is no.2 studying at? (Elaine T)
Newtown.

Talk something actually about no. 1. (Shien li)
She is my best friend. :D

Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 ? (Pamelia)
She is my steadstead. :D

Where does no.9 live at? (Abby)
No idea.

What colour does no. 4 like ? (Maria)
No idea.

Are no.5 and no.1 best friend ?
shien li & adelene, i think so? :D

Does no.1 have any pets ? (shien li)
Nope.

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world ? (caiyan)
She is Hottttt. :)

What is no.10 doing now ? (Mc)
How would i know? (:

It Takes Forever, For You To Understand

Had our English Exam today, i think i will flunk my letter writing.
its like, difficult and i dont understand. Die.
Me and shien li commented on some one's hoodie. Haha.
And know what, today morning was dammmmmm freeeaking cold la. :(

At first we were suppose to go out together, but they couldn't decide where to go.
so went tiong with dayan and simin. :D
ate at griller with them and we had some dirty conversation. LOL!
So after that went to meet Weixiong, Kahweng, Peifen, And a few others.
Chit chat awhile and went to look for boyfriend and left. (:

i still feel emptiness deep inside of me

Had my chinesseee exam today.
was like, stomach cramped, then cannot focus. -'-
oh andand, I notcied theres this girl in our school her name is so Hot.
MILLION P.S(million paiseh=million sorry
I saw her nametab. :D
after that i went to bukit merah centre to have my lunch with simin.
then jiamin and caiyan came, talked. Joked.
and Jiamin came out of this conversation,
Jiamin : my mother said 'pia'(fuck) is chiong(go for it).
Us : HUH?!
Jiamin : she said, " jiamin, exam coming already. must pia(fuck) k.
Us : * Laugh-ed like crazy* Jiamin, pia for exam k.

LOL! nonsense right?
then after that talked until dontknow what
Pia(fuck) then will win, No pia(no fuck) no win.

kkkkkk enough. then after that boyfriend came and ate lunch.
Jason came and they off to cresent then we went home.
:D

oh and, thanks vincent lover.
for always been there to listen to my problems, ALL MY PROBLEMS.
gave useful adivice. thank really really alot. :D remember what you promise, if you can get in school again, any school. you will study hard. :)

what about me? sometimes i wonders♥

Tomorrow is exam. ._.
Today did home econ, was kind of fun actually.
Partner with GaoQiang instead of Hazel, (: we took alot of extra-s, 300g of flour instead of 100g, 10 spoons of choco chip instead of six, so ended up we got alot more cookies than what other had. :)
Scolded simin during recess, hope she wakes up and know what she is doing.

After school went to cut my hair, along with caiyan, simin and Jiamin.
Went up to Jiamin's house for awhile.

Moodless due to something now, why cant i laugh like how i used to.

today really nothing special.
school is getting better, though lesson is still as boring as ever. ._.
but thinking that will be in the same group with bitch tomorrow during home econ is already enough to kill me.

Was slacking after that, until 7 plus.
exam is coming, what to do. ._.

i dont like hazel. perhaps, her attitude. ._.

trying to see it in a positive way.

I am Like A starrrrrrrr. :D

Went to BMC to study, with Boyfriend and Jiamin. :D
went to Mac, had lunch. then studied, i copied down some notes since i didnt bring my text books home. :D

Then boyfriend said something, then is like.
Me : shut up.
Boyfriend : really ah?
Start to do all those childish action to distract me.
ME : Jiamin you have such a childish brother.
Jiamin : *laughs
ME : *pinched
Boyfriend : Jiiaaamiinnn, you have such a pervertic da sao. luan luan mo
Disturbed here and there.

He wrote this on my hand.
I (L) weekiat who is not a star

Then i wrote this on his hand.
Esther is a star and i (L) her.

he doesnt seem to like stars that much. :D
but toooooo bad, i love stars. :p

trying to stop myself from thinking too much.
:D I (L) you.

The best, :D

happy second month my dearest boy. :D
altogether i am happy with you, i love spending time with you.
spent hours doing nothing but i felt satisfied.
you guided me through everything, and i can say you never fail to cheer me up.
Even though things may seem wrong, but i believe its only for now.
Remember what you told me yes? :)
I love you.

EDITED
cab-ed to boyfriend house there, then we bus-ed to Greatworld. :D
Bought tickets for Movie ; Mama Mia.
Then ate at yoshinoya. :D
watched movie. The movie was kind of nice, alot of singings. :D
after that bus-ed to queen's way, walked around.
bought ear-rings, ear stick. :D

Things are getting better?
i hope everything will be fine, remember what you promise me just now.
I love you.

Lesbbbboooo! :D

school seemed to be boring today, nothing seem to be right. -'-

Today went to vivo city with G/B friends. Well, talked alot of stuff and laughed alot. :D went to boyfriend's house around 6/6 30？
Watched some show, left his house around 8 and cab-ed home.

Mood is like very bad now.
Due to ________ & __________,
And and, Just now when i take the lift. theres one Med-age uncle who wanted to take the lift too. He knew i was waiting and i dont know he did it on purpose or whatever fuck, looking at me with the damm face of his, walking really slow expect me to wait for him. Was pissed and didnt bother so pressed on the close button. He was like, " HELLO! NB CB! but sadly the was closed. then he keep kpkb and kept banging on the lift door. retarded bastard,

Am now pissed off with my brother, mother, of ____ & ____, of Hazel, with Almost everything.
-'-

everything is in a mess, it suck. Really,
Guiding me through everything, thats what you used to do.
But not anymore, you're making it worst. whats wrong with everything now, -'-

The best, ever.

Finally, At lassst. I was hyper. :DDDDDD
Didnt fall asleep today, k la. A little. :)
normal lessons, people is looking at as if i am not human because i wear purple contact lenses. o.o i still dont get use to it, D:

Hmmmm. dismissed and went to look for :Elaine, Vivian, Simin, Keshwin, Maria, Victoria, Shujing, chuan shen, benedict and dayan along with adelene, Shien li and hazel. SO MANY PEOPLE RIGHHHHTTT. :D Love them super lots.
Hmmmm, went up to detention room with them except for hazel and dayan.
Being so highhhhh over there. Took alot of pictures, Upload soon.

went to look for boyfriend at his house after that, did some homework.
Then did some kicking and punching, he teached me.
Jiamin back home after that, talked, gossiped, complained.
Omg jiamin i love you la. :DDDDDD
Then peiqi laobu came, slacked awhile.
left his house, meet weixiong awhile then backed home. :D

Laobu, everything will be fine.
even if its not, i will still be there for you.
i promisssee.

People！ :D
was sleeping through almost all the lessons accept maths. :D
so yea, nothing much.

Went to queen's way with adelene and Simin.
bought my contact lense, PURPLEEEEEEEEEEE! :D
Saw willy, kenny and Zhixiu. :D Said Hi and all,
went slacked while at membina and went up to jiamin house. :D

Give both of us some time,
i believe things will get better. :D

What hurts most was being so close.

School was Fine. The class was being super noisy. :O
Free Period for History and Pe. :)
Recess-ed, chinese. was really pissed with yang laoshi, i want chen laoshi back
really soon. ): Lit-ed, Olivia thought i was talking to her when i was actually talking
to shien li, She was like, " What two la? " Moron. -.-
Geo-ed, kayatree was the relieve teacher.
I tell you what, She is serious brain-less. -.-
Chuan Shen, Elaine and Dayan came to our class.
And she actually believed that they are 1/2 student.
So yea, talked and laughed with them.
I drew on Chuan Shen's Hand.
I Love ET-s, Esther Tan and Elaine Tan. They rocks with permanentmarker. :D COOLRIGHT.
Walked out of the classroom once the bell has rang since she kept delaying.
FUN LA TODAY.

After school had lunch with baby. :D
Then he left to cresent and i accompanied Jiamin. :)

I'm starting to feel something wrong between you & me.
Like, we're drifting. yet not drifting, mixed feelings.
dont understand whats wrong.
I know i love you, i hope everything will be perfectly fine.
I will change before things starts to change, i promise.

Screamed but no one hears me.



Some people just cant stop annoying me. -.-

Hello people, :D
Went Tiong Simin, Jiamin, Mchong and Zenna♥
It've been a long time since i meet Mc, I miss baby alot ok. D:
Saw casselyn and claudia. :D
ate at long John, walked around Tiong. I want to pierceee my noise la bloody hellll, i was so close, so so so close for it to be done. Just that i want some one accompany me. D:
They left for Tuition, Me and simin mrt-ed to town after that.
Walked to Cineleisure and far east Walked around, bought some stuffs.
I saw this hat, i saw that tube, I saw that shoe.
I WANT TO GO BACK AGAIINNNNNN. D:
i promised myself, by next week. I will make them MINE. :D
Went to arcade and Left to tiong.

slacked at playground awhile, simin left.
bought甜不辣and sushi, bused home.
supposed to meet baby first, but since he was at safra and we dontknow where
can we go. so never meet him. :)

How i wish, everything would be perfect.

I love the way you are always there.

Hellllo.
i'm feeling much better now, thanks baby. :D
didnt go to school today, was tired. surprisingly mother allowed. -.-
Waked up and on my lappy, Baby came and bought lunch for me. :D
accompanied me for awhile and he went cresent. :D

If only you know how much i love you.

Fuck my bloody com.
it is so laggyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. D:
I know i am having my stupid attitude again, :x Tired, Pissed, Fucked up, irritated
for no reason.

school was boring, and i passed my physics. Border line, 11/20.
Baby fetched me from school, ate subway at Anchor Point.
Just like another day, slacked and talked with Boyfriend, Jiamin, Kevin, Yuan Xiang, Isk, Leonard, Jason and another guy which i dontknow his name. :x
Yuan Xiang can shake his chest/breast very well. Left, right, both.
He was like, asking if i want to learn. -.-
Went home around 6 40.

Biatch, i dont need to write I AM EXPRESS KID on my face to tell people i am express. so what if i am, none of your bloody business though. you provoked me on a day when i am in a real bad mood. nice one ass.

sorry, i will try my best.

You are my beautiful disaster.

Guess i will just do a short update? :)

Went to school as per normal,
- Was kind of tired today since was rushing through Mr goh's holiday work.
- Yang lao shi/yang meh meh told me to stop laughing like driller and told me go for laughing lessons.
- fell asleep through Mr prathap's lesson, i guess he knew i was tired and nice enough for not waking me up.
- Theres alot of stars on my leg thanks to teo.
- lastly, i miss陈老师. D:

Had our lunch at Griller, then went cresent with boyfriend, Jiamin and Simin.
Met kevin, Jason, Isk, Leonard, Left around 6.
went Simin's house, changed and went jogging. o.o

jogged for 1 and 1/2 hour then went backed home. :D

Am i thinking too much or things are changing?

rson yoAre you:
Perfect: I wish
Tall: Nahhhh. D:
In your pajamas: Somehow? :D
Left handed: Nope

Last:
Friend you saw: hmmmm, Wenxin?
Talked to on the phone: Baby. :D
Person to text you:Baby.
Is today better than yesterday: Most likely.

Favourite:
Number: 22. :D
Colour: Black, Purple, Lime green and pink.
Food: Chocolate?
Place: Tiong, my second home.

Questions and answers:

What was the first thing you did when you got up this morning?
Call baby since he didnt reply my message.

Do you have anything bothering you?
Yeah. What to wear later. D:

What is the last place you went?
Kitchen?

Do you smile a lot?
I laugh alot instead.

Do you wish upon the stars?
Sometimes, I do.

Are you a friendly person?
Depends on who? :DDDD

Where did you sleep last night?
My bed?

Why did you sleep there?
Like duh? its my bed.

When was the last time you cried?
Fewdays ago? Something happened to weixiong. D:

What was your last thought before going to bed?
I am 1day older. D:

Rate life as of right now, 1 being bad, 10 being great?
8?

What do you hear right now?
songs.

Does anything hurt you right now?
I doubt so.

What's your favourite month?
Dec, Christmas.

Emotions:
Are you missing someone right now: Yes.
Are you single: No.
Are you tired: No. infact kind of high
Are your parents still married: No. D:

Basics:
Real name: o.o
Age: :D
Eye colour: dark brown
Male or female: Female
Single: No
Crushing: I AM ATTACHED.
Smart: No.
Hair colour: black? :D
Sweats or Jeans: Jeans?
Phone or camera: Phone.
Health freak: NOO.
Righty or lefty: Righty
Smoke or drink: Drink maybe yes?

First:
Best friend: Teo, Jiamin.
Award: Zhangde idol? thats what i rmb. D:
Enemy: No one?
First pet: Puppy. D:

Currently:
Eating: Sweet.
Drinking: Nothing?
Listening to: Fall.
Plans for tmr: SCHOOOLLL. DDDDDD:
Waiting for: Baby to get up.

Which is better with the opposite gender:
Lips or eyes: Eyes.
Shorter or taller: Taller.
Romantic or spontaneous: No idea.
Sensitive or loud: Loud.
Hook-up or in a relationship: No idea

Have you ever:
Drank hard drinks: Think so?
Lost glasses/ contacts: Yes. D:
Ran away form home: yes.
Broken someone's heart: No idea,
Been arrested: No.

Answer truthfully:

Do you like someone?
I love someone. D:

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Yes. :D

What time is it now?
12.50pm.

What colour is your T that you're wearing now?
i'm not wearing T now.

What did you eat for lunch?
Bread.

Who was the last person you talked to today?
The day has Just started Bodoh.

What time did you sleep last night?
2 am?

Who was the last you yelled at?
No one?

Who did you cry infront of?
Baby. D:

Who do you hate most?
No idea.

Did you kiss before?
Yes.

What would you do with $1000 000?
Hmmmm. Shopping spreee. :D

Who was the last person you called crazy?
Baby.

Who did you talk to on the phone last night?
Baby.

What's your favourite sport?
Volleyball i guess.

Who do you love?
Boyfriend, Family and friends.

Who are you missing now?
Tons of them.

What school were you in and are in?
Zhangde, Newtown now.

Did you wait for someone in the middle of the night just to answer him?
Answer what?

What is your name?
Esther

When did your world appear?
040194

What was the last song you listened to?
Reflection.

Who was the last person you danced with?
I forgot.

I tag: sim Jia min, Vanessa, Wenjun , and anyone.

Take a look inside my heart, dont you see its breaking apart.

Mother came back today uh, :D
was on the com the whole morning, then went to baby's house.
Everybody was at home except Jiamin. D: Did my homework, talked to baby.
Went down to eat, Then backed home. :D

And Elaine.T Les, Cheer up alright. even though my shoulders werent there
when you are down. but you can always call me to talk to me. I will be there k,

Take a look inside my heart, wondering what i really want.

It seem so yesterday, I will forget everything i promise.

Eeeeeek! My Com is lagging like shit. D: *points middle finger

feel so weird without boyfriend, o.o
He've been sleeping over at my house for a week already, suddenly left. feeling strange , i miss boyfriend. D:

Boyfriend came at 9am, then he sleep until 4pm?
went to BMC find Jiamin and Tracy, Ate pizza at KFC. Yes, KFC.
then boyfriend left for Muay Thai Training and I came home. D:
Short post today,
and you know what.

Mother want boyfriend to go to dinner with us, COOL right? :D

my heart was broken, for a long time.
and you know what, you fixed it without me noticing.

you are just perfect.

1)what is the important thing in your life?
Boyfriend,Friends and Family.

2)what is last thing you bought with you own money?
hmmmm, doughnut:D

3)Where do you wish to get married?
Boat.

4)How old do you think you will permanently owned by your love?
It depends?

5)Are you in Love?
♥Weekiat :D

6) when was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Just now?

7)Name the lastest book you bought?
hmmmm. Teenage? :D

8)What is you full name?
Esther Tan.

9)share your secret with?
Boyfriend, Loved ones♥

10)The longest relationship?
6months.

11)Boyfriend/Family to takecare of you?
Boyfriend♥

12)do you do your own laundry?
No.

13)How many children you wish to have?
2/3?

14) Hugs/kisses?
Hugs.

15)Name a person, stat 5 Facts about her/Him.
SimWeeKiat♥
1. He is my dearest baby.
2. I love him.
3. I am talking on the phone with him.
4. He is being super Hyper over the phone.
5. He is the best boyfriend I've ever had.

16)8 things i am passionate about.
1.Love, Lots of them.
2.Boyfriend, Loved ones.
3.Hyperness.
4.Cash.
5.Slacking.
6.Laughters.
7.Candy.
8.Music.

17)8 things i say often.
1.mei you mao/hairless/mo mo.
2.Fuck you.
3.What the Hell.
4.Ohmygawddddddddd.
5.Bluff me.
6.Hahahahahahhahahah.
7.I dont know/bu dong.
8.harrrrrrrr.

18)books i've read recently.
Teenage, is that counted? o.o

19)8 song you would listen to over and over again.
1. Fall.
2. Sorry.
3. I wanna go.
4. Whatever it takes
5. i can wait forever.
6. Its not goodbye
7. you found me.
8. Losing my ground.

20)8 things i learned this/last year.
1. The one you always hang out with,
doesnt mean she is the one you can trust.
2. The real meaning of Heart Breaking.
3. Everything is unexpected.
4. Its nothing if you have friends everywhere, the real friends
is those who will always be there no matter what happens.
5. everything gets better in time.
6. No matter how long it have been, how happy you're now.
your heart break again and again everytime when you see the one
who hurt you most.
7. Love, has no reasons.
8. Studies, always stress me out.

Tag to : shien li, jia min, vivian, maria, elaineT/L, Adelene and everyone. :D

You bring colours to my world.

Pictures! :D

my dearest LAOBU!

Two pigs. :D

Mother is trying to wake him up. -.-

LaoGong! :D

WeiJie. :D

BABY! :D

wearing LaoPeh's Camp Jacket. :D

Simin, Peiqi, WeiJie, Weixiong and boyfriend is at my house now.
Weixiong, weijie and boyfriend sleeping. -.-

yesterday they thon at my house, Boyfriend left for cyrus around 1am.
backed at 8am plus. CRAZY.
WeiJie is supper pig la, earliest to sleep and latest to wake up. D:
Edit later yea.

EDITED
went to cresent meet Jiamin, Jason, Kevin and caiyan.
but they left after awhile.
went to eat and boyfriend went to accompany Isk. :D

Now all of them left, house only left me and boyfriend. D:
they will be back at night. D: