yo peeps. <3

went out with elaine lim, mc and fanglin today. <3

met girlfriend at outram, then we took a wrong train. :x

then met mc and fanglin at chinatown and we went to plaza sing. :D

mc got damm alot of money today la, lucky idiot.
so, he treat me and elaine ice cream, muha. thanks.

slacked around there.
laughed like, alot today?
walk around like hell and we went have lunch at some restaurant.
me, girlfriend and fanglin ate pasta and mc ate a regular pizza himself instead. he is seriously a pig la, he finished the pizza and one potato salad. omfg.
he was like begging fanglin to eat one piece for him, fanglin dontwant.
then they pushed here and there until it dropped on the table. -.-

after that took a shuttle bus to tiong.
on the bus we were singing so loud, embarassing. :x
slacked for awhile, and then went home at about 8 15. :D

elaine tan is so loved<3
girlfriend, thanks for everything okay.
thanks for willing to listen when i talk bout him again and again.
thanks for laughing like mad cows together with me instead of treating me like a insane person.
thanks for keeping my lil secrets and not spreading like what some people does.
thanks for lending me your shoulder when i am down.
thanks for forgiving me when i happen to make some awful mistakes.

though those to you may not be so important,
but dear, just those things you did brighten up my days.
they often make me felt so much better than before.
til now, i've never find some one like you yet.
we had went through alot of ups and downs,
this friendship meant much more than it should be already.
i pray that we will remain like this forever. <3
girlfriend, ily.

i am waiting pointlessly,
you never appreciate anything that i did.
i've been very seriously towards my feeling.
but you just never understand did you?

happy birthday MELDONLIM. <3
be proud okay, i make cookies for you.
with lapat and simin's help, thanks my dears<3
we did it sercretly since lapat's mum dont let us to do anything related to cookings, andand. her brother is nice la okay<3
the first time i managed to make somthing nice but yeah, the second time its chao ta. :x and i actually burned my hand can. fish,
it taste so nice that i feel like eating it all, but.....fineee. :x
meldon lim if you dont appreciate i swear you will die okaaayyy. lol!

today school was very slackish though it is just one day before exam starts.
i actually have to bring everything thats under my table home, thanks angus and hazel la. they help me bring back some. <3

after school went to clementi and slacked at school until 6 15. school like so empty la. but seriously, i laughed alot today. i was really high can. :D

dearest elainetan, my lesbo. i really hope we wont drift right. lets copy SOMEBODY, i cant leaveeeeee without yoouuuuu, i neeeeddd yooouuu. <3 lol i really hope our friendship will last right. <3

and my daddy, poh shujing. <3 why so emo today? dont okay? please be hyper. ily like alot yeah. though we dont talked that much but still, i feel the pain when i see you emo-ing. :D ily.

HAZELLEE, dont sad over that thing right? i believe he is not that sensitive. but yeah, you cannot be shy. i cheered you up today, you SMILE when your tears were still flowing. praise me okay. <3 i have my ways to let you laugh. no matter what, iam with you my dear.

no point waiting anymore, serious.

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SHEIN-LI : lol. ily too dear<3
PEIFEN : lol. i didnt do it, jancie helped me do. <3
ELAINE : lol. imy like hell too, like i said, one week never meet you i will die. serious i really need you la. :D
JIAMIN : haha. loveyou too. :D
JANICE : haha. thanks alot. <3
ZENNA : sweetheart<3 no i express. :] lol, iam free so you can meet me like anytime<33
JACELYN : wo ai si ni le. <3
JOANNE : hello, thanks for tagging yeah. <3
JEWEL : haha. yeah, hello too. loved<3
LAPAT : haha. yesyes! ily too my dearest, mua!

<3

i didnt post for like quite a few days?

today school was fine today, perhaps. INTERESTING. :D

frist period was PE.
played bb and captainball which was ermm, okay?
i never long never play sports seriously. :x
he finally allow me to wear FBT yeah! but must be black in colour. D:

then was history which was boring as usual.
recess-ed and GEO. ho si min, dont be so vulgar please? its knid of annoying sometimes. :x

and MT test i got 87/100. :x
chen lao shi was so nice that,
" esther, dont eat sweets in class ah. "
" esther, please dont sms in your pencil box. "
and she actually didnt scold me, how nice.
i enjoy express MT so much more than HMT. :x

mr goh didnt come today and that dontknow teacher kept stopping me from using the phone, retarded. i also didnt sms. D:

went sp with dears and slacked in school.

after that left me, elaine and lapat.
mr john lim came to join us, and i actually cant believe that mr john lim ; the DM. thought us bad words, unbelievable. :x andand, he still claimed that all of us his girlfriend. then he talked about some things related to LOVE. :D

seriously, I REALLY talked alot today.
and mostly craps. :x

i shall get things clear,
and force myself to move on.
affinity mean nothing.

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tagged by : shien-li

1. At what age do you wish to get marry?
idk. :x

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend?
friends of cause<3

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
teo shien-li, vivian lee, poh shujing, hazel lee, elaine tan/lim, sim jia min, janice sie, adelene chong<3

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
depends?

5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
rewind to the past and do the things i missed and regretted.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yeah. :D

7. What is your goal for this year?
be happy everyday<3

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
nah i dont. D:

9. Have you broken someone heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?
how would i know?

10. What feeling do you love most?
which i cannot describe. <3

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
nothing. as long as he is the one i love. :D

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
confusion.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
duh?

14. Do you believe in GOD?
yeah i do. :D

15. What do you think is the most important thing in in your life?
Loved ones<3

16. do you believe in love at e first sight?
maybe?

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
pretty, understanding, nice, kind and sweet. <3

18. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
countless.

19. IF time were to rewind, will you want it to be?
yes. definitely.

20. Would you wait forever for someone you like?
forever? :x

Instructions:
Remove one question from below, and add in your personal question.
Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.
List them out at the end of the post.
Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.
Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all :D

Hazel Lee, .
teo shien-li
Elaine Tan,
Vivian Lee,
Adelene Chong,
Janice Sie, .
Poh Shu Jing,
elaine lim

i never even go out this weekend la. D:
i am so proud of myself. :]

and i dont feel any better honestly,
gosh, help me la please. :x

today whole day i am doing blogskins and watching drama.
i want to go school la. D: i miss everyone.
and yeah, my blogskin is exact the same as JANICE SIE. :D
thanks my dear.

man i just noticed i am crapping, yeah have nothing to post about.
mid-year is just next week and seriously i need to study, especially my maths. D:


isit worth for me to wait after all?
sometimes i wonder.

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SHIEN-LI : lawls, yeah i will be in school for sure. :D i miss your like hell lah. ily more than tons. :D
VIVIAN : lawl, yeah i still have you. <3 dear, ily like siao okay! :D
MINDY : aha, thanks for tagging. you too. <3
LAPAT : muhas. ok ok, i will. babe ily. <3
ZHIXIU : lawls. zhixiu sexy. :D
JACELYN : hello dear. :D
HAZEL : lol. i already miss you like siao la. :D muha.
ZENNA : lol. yeah we must meet! :DD imy imy imy imy imy. <3
SIMJIAMIN : neverminid, next time dont missing already. i worried. D:

mydears, that Christmas night we spent togother. <3 the night we stayed til early morning, we had so much fun. :D that night, i'wll never forget.

sorry for not updating recently, lazy. D:
a boring weekend, again.
having a serious mood swing without reasons.
feeling upset. D:

and hazle lee, congrats. <3
hope you and ou jun tai last long.
dont be shy anymore la okay.
and jun tai, take good care of her or i will give you hell.

and after that day, i've realized.
i shouldnt have fell in love with you in the first place,
i feel like i am not being myself when it comes to you.
i wonder why, i feel like i am being so desperate when i shouldn't even have.
everything i do, you wont even bother to appreciate.
you dont understand how i feel.
damm, just forget it.
from now on wards, all the stuff thats related to you.
none of my business anymore.


oh my tian. :x i got tons of tags waited to be replied. D:
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PEIFEN: lol, nola nola. you look pretty in every way yeah. :D ily tons my dearest.
JACELYN : lawl. i eat since last year. so, yeah. ily babe. :D
ELAINE.TAN : muhahas! ily tons too. :D
JANICE : lol, ily dear. <3
SHIEN-LI : lol. imy alot man. D: dear ily tons<3
WENJUN :oh thanks, ily tons dear. <3
ZENNA : lol. imy you like hell la can. so long never see you. when can we meet? :D
VALERIE : lawl, hello.
ADELENE : muha. hello laopo<3 ily tons and tons. :D
SHERRIE : yeah tru, long time no see. :D i miss zps like hell lah. thanks for tagging anyways. :D
HAZEL : lol. i didnt okaaaaaay! :D i didnt know your got stay back on friday. D:
YANLIN : hello. thanks for tagging. :D
DADDY : muaha! yeah i am suprise can. ily like hell dear. <3
ZHIXIU : muha. you ARE sexy can. sexysexysexy. lol, yeah meet up soon. <3

i've got my things to do, you are just wasting my time.

well, i didnt go school today. me and shien-li is fated<3
both of us got our right eye swollen thats why we were absent. :D
heard that cheryl is the monitress now, iam glad seriously. :)
mr bean finally know i am not the right person.

andand i have 11 message yet to be reply ;
my prepaid low, will top up tomorrow. :]

update tomorrow yeah.
stomachache, idk why. D:

please tell me what to do,
now i am totally lost and yet i just dont get a answer.
what you want i seriously dont know.

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tags will reply tomorrow. :D

remember? we messed up the chalet before we left, and we had so much fun there. :D

today meldon never come. D: he went to NUH.
always injured himself, kind of retarded .D:

today i didnt get scolded for my uniform which is a super goodthing. :D managed to tuck in and unfold everything before mr bean come. muhas! praise me.
i've got nothing to post today.

but yeah, mr goh was cool today. again.

x he started the topic about maths trail.
x haqimi said can swim at sky park.
x mr goh started to crap that people urine inside.
x haqimi claims that his friend went to drink the water.
x * mr goh started crapping with the class. *
x he started the topic about some disease about urine.
x then crap about our generations.
x then started the topic about cancer.
x dontknow why the talked about he bathed in water fall when he was young.
x then talked until camping.
x then went all the way to people washing pot.
and the he suddenly realised he need to continue his lesson after like 40minutes.
how cool.

i am glad that things are getting better. <3

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JANICE : ahas, so does bird kuku. :D thanks for keeping my tag board alive. <3
JACELYN : lol. now left 20 plus only. D:

111 lollipops. <3
cool right, mc gave me this last year. no trying to say anything here but yeah. look at some pictures and seriously i miss our past. :D

thanks for the people who prayed for mum. she is fine already, she is at home now. :D and thanks my dear elaine tan, for accompanied me to visit my mum. i really dont have any sense of directions as you can see, if you never go with me. i swear i will never find wherea isit. D:

yeah after i visit my mum yesterday, we cabbed to vivo slacked. i just noticed me and elaine share the same fashion sense, E.T you rocks so much can! then we walked for while and her father fetched us for dinner. (:

her father is kind of fierce can. D:
i stayed over at her house, and lagger. dont angry with me, i molested your girlfriend. :D i disturbed her so much while she was talking to him. :D
i sleep at around 2 30 when elaine's PSP battery flat. D:

i rushed home around 1 because my mum told me she will go home today instead of tomorrow, and the house is in a mess. cabbed home and managed to finish everything before she reach home. :DD


i've decided.
i'll continue waiting. :D

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VIVIAN: thanks sweetie. (: ily always too, and yeah. you must cheer up too :D imy. <3
SHIEN-LI: oh and yes, my mum is okay now. thanks alot my dear. :D i love my elmo. <3 friends forever. :D
JACELYN: thanks dearest, ily tons. thanks for always been there for me. you are loveed yeah! :D
HAZEL: lol. i know you lonely because i not there right? aha. <3
ABBY: lol dearest. lets meet up someday. <3
WENJUN: hello. thanks for the tag love. :D
MARIA: hehs, hello. :D
JANICE: you called me kuku bird first can. :D loveed.
ZHIXIU: lol. ily<3
DEBORAH: hehs. hello! thanks for tagging love.
E.T: lesbo! aha. you wont know how much i love you okaaay. <3

ESTHERTAN, VIVIANLEE, ELAINETAN, JANICESIE, HAZLELEE and TEOSHIEN-LI. <3

dearest, we will never be apart. your are important than anything else in the world. <3 our friendship is so strong even though we get to know each other only for 4 months, i will lend your my shoulder to cry on yeah.
no matter what happen, i will be there. :D i love your like hell okay! :D


ELAINE LIM, ESTHER TAN and LIEW PEIFEN<3

dearest, i will never forget the past. when we had so much fun and laughters. thanks for always been there when i was sad, thanks for the past few years. our friendship had been on and off, and lets hope we will continue to be bestfriends. :D i will always be there when you need me. <3

and never forget my dearest SIM JIA MIN, JACELYN TAY<, ADELENE CHONG, POH SHUJING, CHERYL LIM. <3

i admit my blogskin is kind of too " sweet " but is like i was tired of finding blogskins lah. already so late and i have no mood to.

today went to meet elaine early in the morning as both of us didnt go school. slacked the whole day? quite fun actually, i was rather high. :D and lagger was like calling elaine? i picked up.

ME: hello?
LAGGER: eh where nyou?
ME:i am not elaine, elaine went in the toliet and she got stucked inside. she dontknow how to open the door.
LAGGER: huh? she okay anot?!
* laugh like hell *
ME:eh i think so?
LAGGER: told her to call me back yeah?
ME: okaaays.

ohmy he actually believed can. hope he wont angry, elaine told me do one okay! :D
i have no mood to post about today, can go shien-li's blog if you are interested.

when i was in elaine's house, i got a called from mum. she told me she is sick, and she is hospitalized for 3days? i not sure why. she said the doctor still checking when i last called.
i left elaine's house because i got to buy dinner for my brother.

in the bus, i called mum again. half way thru the conversation, i cried. and i actually tried damm hard so that she wont noticed. then i continued crying until i reached my stop. D: i was so worried and guilty. i love her more than i thought. D: mammie, lets pray that you will get well soon. you will be fine, you must. (:

my brother went my cousin's house stayed and left me in the house alone.
its 12 midnight and seriously i am scared. D:

baby, what should i do?
i am seriously confuse.

SHIEN-LI: lol, as long as you want. i can always keep you accompanied. but iam fun only when iam high. :D dear, ily tons. <3 elmo and cookiemonster, friends forever. :D
JANICE:lol, bird kuku sound so not nice honestly. :D and my blogskin is okay can, pink is nice janice sie.
ZHIXIU: hmmm, sorry dear. i dont have either her picture or her blog. D:
JACELYN: esther is your laopo. <3
PEIFEN: lol. dont scared us in that way lah, later will have heart attack de leh. D:
ET: lesbboooooooooo~ ily tons too! mua! i wont live without you my dearestt. (:
ADELENE: hellooooo my dear laopo. thanks for tagging yeah. ily tons. <3

short post today.

i went out with viviaaaannnnnnnnnn! and some others.
we talked alot about ho si min, :D and i actually told her i like shawn tay. lol

shien-li is my elmo.
hazel is my twin.
janice is my bird kuku.
Elaine is my lesbo.
and vivian is my boyfrienddd. :D

lalalala, dontknow what else to post. i dropped to express chinese because i skipped HMT afternoon lesson too many times. D: but i can sit with shien-li! thats a goodthing. :D

i enjoy hanging out with viviannn lee can! :D
ily<3

thats all for today.
be proud, at least i post. :D

after all the waitings,
thats all i got.

SHIEN-li : wooohoooos. me and shien-li is fated. :D muhahahas! yea so we shall hang out more, i realized i only high when i am out. ily<3
JACELYN : sorry laogong. i typed wrongly. D: ily<3 aha! thanks, iloveeeeeeeyou tons. :D
JANICE : bird kuku! lol ily janice, i was so high today. :D
PEIFEN : you were like scaring me to death lah. D: naughty peifen. ily<3
PASSERBY : ermmm, not sure. D:
VIVIAN : lol! i will. ily my dearest boyfrieeeeend! :D
MELDON : uncleeeee, i know okay. D: so loh soh.

i realized i dont like to update my blog until someone bothered to actually remind me to.

today really suck can.
firstly, regarding to uniforms. mr bean claims that i tucked out my shirt in front of him when i was actually tucking in, i was like what the fucking hell?! then he told us to went back to the hall and started shouting like a mad cow. only know how to bully sec ones-s. D: the the dunno teacher asked us to stay back. man, i realized teachers have been picking on me. SLIGHTLY above knee they claims that its TOOOO short, see the others in the class can. D:

I HATE ATTIRE CHECKING. D:

anyway theres these quick write during english lesson. my first wish was to wish no more attire check, second one is regarding to candies. and i actually promised i would never get sick of candies. :D third one is to have 3 more wishes. :D

after school went to find dearest elaaaaaine lim! :D
ily <3

you dont act big lah can, think you older than us then you better?
treat her nicely when she is not around, when she come you ignore her.
think you what? once i thought you were nice, at least better that what it turn out to be.
now i see how bitchy you are.
i am not referring to ho si min, but someone from 1/1.


why things turned out to be like this.
am i still loving you like i used to?

SHIEN-LI ; nah, you get emo sometimes. D: lets dont stay in school okay, go out and have funnnn! :D i love teo shien-liiiiii! :D
E.T ; helloooo E.T, i loveeeeeeeee ET lots. :D
ELAINE ; lol! yea i get to see you today! i believe we will never be apart. :D
JACLEYN ; laogoooooong! immmy aloooot too! lets meet somedays? :D ily tons.
JANICE ; nah, heres your updates can. :D

i just dont understand why mydear shien-li can remember everything that happened. D:
i will just forget after a few hours.

anyways, today we were slacking the whole day!

mr bean went for his course so we got mr David again.
at first he wanted us to do the bio worksheet thingy, but ended up nonsense-ing with us. :D
after that was lit, mr olivia didnt care much like usual. so we were slacking again.
and recess-ed. (:
that teacher came to look for me as she claims that the boys will be uncomfortable. because we sit along with the boys when all the girls were in front. is the guys didnt wait for us can. D:

CME we slacked again, that relief teacher looks like shien-li. seriously. (:
following that was chinese, i didnt sleep today. praise me. though i was vandalizing the table thru out the whole lesson. :D and i got 71/100 for my test, janice claims the teacher dk how to mark as in i got 2 marks for the first page while end up 71. D:

mrs fu didnt come so we slacked again.
we went to 1/6 and 1/5 disturbed.
shawn was funny, he thought i was waving at him. LOL!
and after that we also went to 1/4, their class was so hyper can!
i love today! :D

after school went out with E.T, shien-li hazel and si mi ho.
ohmy it was fun can!
we went Singapore poly for lunch. we added anything we could find on the table and mixed them up, they smelled like shit and seriously, you dontwant to look at it.
the uncle who was a cleaner there was like >

* peep-ed
UNCLE : dont play lah! you still want to eat anot?
* irritated face. *
ME : yea iam gonna to eat it later, believe?
UNCLE : finished your food then go dont mess around here!
ME : i told you i still want to eat.
UNCLE : your school teacher never teach you isit? later i must wipe and......
ME : we did it in the container, you wont have to wipe the table. you want we can clean for you.
UNCLE : * said something which i didnt hear *.
ME : * talking to elaine * what he said?
* elaine talking while uncle nagging behind which annoyed me. *
ME : shhhhhhhhhh!

he was like so annoying lah, insulting leh! D:

after that we went to playground near our school, slacked there and went to buy bubble tea at clementi mrt there. ohmy we were so high can! ran in the ran, wherea dunno which crazy car beep at us when it was green man. we laughed sooooo loud in bus like nobody's business. :D it was fun can. too bad dear janice couldnt join us because she got her training.

anyway i will be uploading photo soon yea. (:

things didnt happened to be what i thought.
even when we talk much more often now.

JANICE : i love being pervertic. when it comes to janice. :D
JIAMIN : ily dear! :D
LAPAT : lol! it looked disgusting right? ewwwwwww, thanks for tagging. ily tons dear!
E.T : hihihihihihihi dearest! :D
ZHIXIU : lol. theres a girl in my school looks like you. hmmm about 6 30? (: we shall hang out again soon. :D
PEIFEN : ahhh! see for awhile only. noooooot fair. D:
HAZEL : lol. when i am high your will die out of laughter. :D so watch out. (:
MELDON : lol. thank me lah can, see i so nice.
SHIEN-LI : only if you high everyday! :D ily tons. :DDD

a short post for some things today.

to some anonymous who tagged on my blog.
the one with badwords all round, i wont bother.

another one who named guest, sorry. i dont really take advice from nameless people.
but seriously, i dont think my skirt is THAT SHORT. i can bring you to see some other people's skirts, IN SEC ONE. apart from it, i don't think i am acting cute as in.. i dont think i am cute. yea of cause theres people who dont like me e.t.c YOU. like i said, i couldnt do anything if you dont. be honest, i think i know who you are. who went around telling people ESTHER IS LIAN. right? (:

mr goh wanted our exercise book back which was with some teacher.
and there it goes....

satish, came back with stack of books.
SATISH ; mr goh, the teacher said our work was badly done. she wanted you to scold the class.
MR GOH ; really? she want to scold come scold herself. why should i scold? siao.
SATISH ; she said our work was very badly done.
MR GOH ; bullshit.
crap crap.
MR GOH ; nevermind, she happy can already.
SATISH ; she not happy.
MR GOH ; not my problem, i happy can already. right lets continue from........

onmy, he was so cool lah. :D

i dont miss you so much now.
it may be a good thing. (: