right, honestly i have no mood to post. iam confuse, yet sad, yet yet lost.
i dunno whats going on with me, i got agitated very easily nowadays. ):

am sure your will get bored if i post about today, so i will just write fewthings out?

firstly, iam okay with jewel now. as in i didnt really so called quarelled with her inthe first place. just a lil arguement. :] after the talk, we are okay now. but JOANNE, iam seriously not happy about you. whats wrong with you? i didnt do anything yet you scolded me bitch, it doesnt matter how many times i scold you back. you are in the wrong when you scold me first, right? and you are so funny, if now i said JOANNE SUCK, and i said iam not referring to you, will you believe? iam not a 3years old kid. its so funny that you thought you blocked me and wrote those things in your personal name. YOU START THE FIGHT.

and xxx, i know you have been treating me good.. but sorry, maybe we be close friends better? dont mean to hurt you but sorry... go for a better girl. :]

MR PRADAP love to tease me and the basketball guys since that time he saw me talking to YD. hmph! and i know i will be dead on mon, i forgot to bring ALL my homeworks home.. i know iam pro.

lastly, meldon injured himself today. like what si min ho said, ICHY HAND. but still, poorthing. thought of go up and ask if he is okay but.. alot of people surrounding him so i think i ask him on mon. :] and sorry for mistaken that you didnt reply my msg, sorry sorry. :(

i realised i love to crap alot now.
i dunno why.
and i cant write anything now because i injured myhand, so pain. but nevermind lah, dont blame your. :]

if now i tell you i still like you.
will it change anything?

iam feeling seriously emo without reasons.
iam cheering myself up, iam.

well, today's lesson was kind of bored?
still learning algebra for math and had our chinese test.
MR CHUA thot i cant be trust so he told me to off my phone, incase i cheat using it. lame. -.-
slacked during LIT and GEO lesson, borrowed meldon's book again. haha.
dunno when am i going to buy mine. :]
LIT was seriously boring, ms olivia wont stop talking.
so i sent yongda a message, and he took it seriously when i was actually joking. then i was like laughhhhing like MAD. :D
ohmyF***inggod, i just cant believe that jessie thought iam jealous. of her and meldon, and she did something tried to get me into trouble. so funny. :] asked her if she like meldon but she denied. hoho.

after school went SP. ate pizza since iam really sick of KFC now, went back to school at about 2plus.
i didnt go band. i learnt for 2years yet they asked me to start from DO RE ME again, i was like wth? i will go only if they start learning songs, by that time i think i already get kick out. :]

stayed in class slacked.
about 5 went home with simin and yongda. :]
sorry simin, cant accompany you to tiong. but i was really tired. (:
YD promised to sent me home everyday. LOl deserve it, anyhow promise loh.
he is a idiot, said want buy drink then inthe end forget to take wallet. end up iam the one who paid for it. HMPH! :(

i've gave up my hope on you.
tired of bothring about your stuff.
i will be much happier without you on mymind.
maybe feelings still there, but it wouldnt be anymore soon. :]

jewel, maybe you really take me as a enemie as in i saying all kind of words to you. dont mean to offence you. but i just dont bear to ignore all that. i didnt mean to be mean although maybe to you i was. i dont hate you, honest. what you think about me, let it be.

dear, you no need to bother if i can manage to forget.
i give you all the freedoms you wish to have.
i wont care about you any longer.
so you can just leave me alone, carry on.
without me, it wont be anymore pains deep inside your heart.
i will takecare of myself, i mean it. (:

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i absolutely hate this damm, damm com.
dunno why the hell i couldnt logging msn, restart & restart also cannot. i hate you, stupid com.

ok cut the crap, im posting while being nag by my mother. scold me for refused to drink milk again, told her alot of times i hate the smell. yet she never give up on persuading. :[

TODAY
morning took a taxi to school, wanted to go early because never do homework. ended realising someone stole my workbook, so childish. :D
oh & decided being a good girl today, pinned up my fringe. (: adelene they all said i look sweeter in it which i dont think so. mr pradap never praise me, yes iam not happy..seriously not. LOL :)

other lessons were boring. mrs lam never come, the dumb chinese teacher wrote my name on the class monitoring book just cus i took out my phone. she is brainless, as a monitoress, i told the monitor to erase away all the names in the book. :D iam so clever. :) haha.

after school stayed back. packed rubbish under my desk, alot of unuseful things were found. okay i know i am lazy, i admit.

slacked at school until six?
yongDa take the same bus as me, omg lah. with him sitting beside i really can die. wont stop disturbing me & he still can complain that its pain when i shoot his ear.
but he is good enough to accompany me & he stop at redhill, then take bus back again. haha.
i know we are close but yea, we are not kind of relationship that some of your thinks yea? simply friends, close one. :)

haven update for long. :]

i failed my maths common test. well, i was very sleepy that day. & thats abnormal, think i was sick. then i got zero for questions which i know how to do.
now almost every textbook got my doodlings on, blame to bordoms.


oh & we've got a pledge for barney family.

we, the dinosaurs of the barneys.
pledge ourselves as only 8memebers family.
regardless of fair or tent.
to build a purple society.
based on slim or plump.
so as to acheive cuteness, sweetness & chioness for our generation.

cute right? haha.
& simin got kicked out of the family, blame her attitude.
janice is the replaccement. :DDD

LOLOL.

school is like sooo fun now!
i love going to school. :]
i will just post about today? im lazzzy.

morning we got fire... erm... dunno what it called.
mrs samugam was like still talking none stop when the bell rang, if it was a real fire. we will be dead. I was looking for meldon, i couldnt see him anywhr. :(

oh & we were allowed to decorate our table. :DD

as for eng, it was sort of boring.
i got scolded for not doing the project thingy & lost my worksheet. LOL
lucky no detention for meee. (:
i got 21/30 for compo! im so happppy.
GAOQIANG, I GOT HIGHER THAN YOU! LOL

after that was assembly? i didnt bring my glasses & i couldnt see anything, so i was like talking none stop. im not torturing gaoQiang, he was the one who disturbed me first. :]

i stayed back at school.
watched boys playing basketball, they were like so restless lah.
then we kept calling jessie a butt shaker, so funny. :]
JANICE : omg do you know what, i was so scared of SIMIN, she very lian.
ME : yes she is, i dont really like her.
JANICE : she is very fierce you know, that time she slapped me.
ME : ?! she slapped you?
JANICE : yes, i was playing but she slapped so hard until i cried.
ME : you cried?!!!
JANICE : ya. but nevermind, its over.
ME : its NOT! how can she slapped you? UNTIL YOU CRY!
JANICE : nevermind lah..
ME : she is going to get a slap from me.
JANICE : NO! you cant!
ME : okay i wont, but im not going to let her off for let you cry.
JANICE : what you gonna do?
ME : dunno, but just not something that ahlains will do ok? :]
im really mad about her slapping mydear janice until she cried, how could she do that lah omg...

i've nothing more to blog about. :D
oh & anyway.
im starting to like meldon. :]
so happy that i managed to forget about you, all the best for you ya? thanks for still allowing me to rely on you. thanks for the past, back to what we were now. FRIEND. (:

actually dun feel like posting, but theres was like so many fun things happened today. (:

we learnt algebra for maths, quite easy actually. (:
& the sitting arrangements has change, MR GOH said me and lapat cant sit together, we wun stop laugghing. but then in the end he also didnt change. ILOVEYOU MR GOH! LOL

during chinese lesson me & gao qiang none stop talking, we got alot to talk abt. mr chua got so irritated & he just gave us the walk out pass told us to go outside talk...... haha. :D ofcus we dint go, but we dint stop our conversation either. (: mind ppl out there, i walk with gao qiang & talk to him or whatever doesnt mean im in love with him. stop being childish ya?

after that is geography, we got test but we end up busy copying. its like so hardd luh. we still got alot of spare times, we went to disturb people in our class. i went around the class & told boys that i love them. " ohokay ", " whatever ", " really? ", " haha. " . LOL thats what most of them answered. as for dillon, when i confessed mylove to him, he was like.... ahem. face red like crazyyy. pls lah, you think i really loveyou eh? & gao qiang proposed to me, i said i will only say i do if he knee down. LOL he dint ofcus.

& LIT, i dint buy text book so i borrow from MELDON. thanks meldon. (:
& i wrote something inside his book.
" hey meldon, i really loveyou alot. believe me anot? -esther "
LOL. i was just kidding, dun take seriously ya meldon? (:
hmmmm, heard that lot of people likeyou & said you cute. i wonder why. :DD

& after school im suppose to stay back for mr pradap, but i ran away. im dead tomorrow. skip band today too, i promise. i promise i will go next week. (:

you said you loveme while you want me to give up.
i have everything but just not you.

just a short post for what i did for these fewdays? (:

firstly, i FINALLY bought my elmo tee which was on my wish list for sooooo LONG! :DD i bought it for $14 at bugis street. i still bought a lil miss twin shirt which nuer simin bought one too, we planned to wear it out together. (: also, bought a white hotpant, a redBELT & a small blackCOLOURED bag. okok, im SATISIFIED now. gonna save money to buy hamster. spent quite alot of money.

secondly, i got very bad for my maths test. VERY BAD. look

LOL.

then, just like what shien-li said. MR PRADAP really like to tease me, you, gaoqiang, arul & uthanan during lessons. maybe he is just trying to let us pay attention? & bout my school U, i got really pissed for kept getting scolded for hair, piercings, skirt & so on. ):
oh & yes im SOO happy when i heard that mr pradap wun COME next week! :DD
& today, just got scolded from mrsLAM cause out of 4pieces of work she gave, i only hand up one. LOL

ILOVEELMO. :DD

i heard so much bout you&herr,
its so hurting, i really do cares bout what you did in your sch.
but i have no right to.
you will have your freedom from nowonwards, im exhausted.
im tired bout caring those matters.
just continue doing what you wish to do.

obvious, im at home now.
obvious obvious, this is the start of the day so i got nothing to post abt.
so i'll stop craping & start to post someth interesting. OBVIOUSLY.

YESTERDAY ;
i went to work, yes WORK. part times.
simlpy wipe dry those wet plates & arrange nicely.
& i got abt $20 an hour? LOL cus its CNY, the pay will be damm high.
& theres one auntie kept asking me this how to do that how to do.
pls lah AUNTIE, IM JUST A GIRL WHO CAME TO WORK THE FIRST TIME.
you dun expect me to teach you everything do you? & i wonder why i know more things than you do. when your pay is higher than mine, i suppose.

i work from 11 to abt 2 40?
then i rush home to get myself change & i went to meet MCHONG & KAHWENG. (:
slack at tiong wait for elaine to come.
she came like abt 4 plus.
we thot of watching movie, but so OMG lah.
all full, left those mid-night movies & gongFU dunk which im not interested.
nothing to do & we thot of gambling. LOL
bought poker from 7-eleven.
at first i kept losing luh.. so stupid.
but then after that i kept winning. ;DD
MCHONG & WONGKAHWENG, kept saying this not counted that not counted. & i got kept putting back those money back. ): HMPH!
after that weixiong came.
abt 9 30 pm? went chinatoown, got MAC for our dinner. (:
we joked alooot, attracted lots of attentions.
dunno WHO said got FIREWORK hor mc?
:D

slack at playground, joke & laugh.
took a cab home at abt 11pm?
my mum never scold me for coming home late. :DD
prob shes in a goodmood? (:

dun be sad huh?
just remember, i will always be there for you. (:
i will be there as long as you need me.
iloveyou, MCHONG. :D

HAPPY NEWYEAR! :DD

i didn't go to school today, as i know it would just be celebrations of chinese newyear. (: but, i still went back to ZPS.
i was like so happpppy when i saw my friends eh, i miss them soooo much. i miss ZPS. ): we thot of staying longer but then we got thrown out, they said they gotta close the sch gate.
ya so no choice, we went to KFC. :D
eat & talk & eat & talk. blahblahblah.

me, shumin, elaine, mc, fanglin & loren.
we went to playground, opposite zps. (:
sat on the blue table & chat.
LOREN stop luring me, i want it but they dun ALLOW ok! stupid.
& shumin, loren is not entertaining, he is IRRITATING.
so much stuff to talk abt although we dint see eachother for so long, well.. ur are still the best. ((:

went home abt 4 30? early huh?
im lazy to upload photo todayyyy.
& my number is gonna change to another number again, those who dint know that number, do ask me for it ya? (:

you dint see the emo side of me.
you thought i will be much happier being lidat.
when i heard you said you will stop loving me, i try not to cry since i promised not to. but it is hurting, it kills me seriously..
its true, the saddest of all is loving someone who used to loveyou.

i got my CROSS COUNTRY today . (:
just for ur infor, its a event which we shld run for 3KM. mind u, its 3KM.
its located at westcoast park. :D

as for this year, you wun get anyth even if u are the first. (:
so the fond family ;
me, lapat, shien-Li, simin, ade, shuJing.
we were the last among all the girls. LOL
on our way, we start singing the BARNEY SONG . we attracted lots of attentions. well, cus of this. ppl who is part of our family, had a suuuuurname ; BARNEY. & im the barneyESTHER. hoho.

when ade&SL saw their pic which SJ took them secretlyyy.
SJ was like so proud of it..


there it goes ade&SL, who was trying to kill the poor SJ..


LOL.

then, when we shld be cleaning the rubbish to get CIP points.
we were actually enjoying at the playGROUND. :DD


i wonder what ar they laughing at?


END OF THE CROSSCOUNTRY.

abt 12, we went to JURONG CENTRE. (:
ate our lunch at longJOHN.
then went to took neos with SIMIN, HAZEL, RIAS. :D




after the neo, theres some lil quarrels between SM & HAZEL.

here it goes SIMIN toturing HAZEL..

then it goes..



hazel was so unhappy being bullied, then she..




i just cant understand them.........



i went home like about 4?
early cus im tired. (:
im showing some pics we took just now. :DDDD

we poke, & poke & poke.



photos i took with them . ((:







well, yes its my shoe. my SCHOOLSHOE. creative huh? LOL





lastly, the lil frog which we saw at westcoast, :D


im trying to forget, i swear.
but it isn't that easy,
u managed to forget abt me, i couldn't.
memories is holding me back,
carryon alone.. sounds so difficult..
once you said forever & you swear when i said i dun believe.
i knew it will end up like this mydear.
forget abt forever.